From CNN Executive Producer Jennifer Bernstein Adams:
Does being a mother make me a better producer, or does being a producer make me a better mother? These are the questions I’m asking myself at 11:30 on a Wednesday night as I try to rock my 22-month-old son back to sleep.
Something has woken him up, just as I was entering my own dreamland, and now he’s having a screaming fit. I usually follow the tough-love toddler advice by letting him “cry it out,” but tonight is different. I find myself holding him tight and rubbing his back, all the time thinking of the mothers in this world who would give anything for the same opportunity.
Actually, I’m thinking of one mother: A woman named Pam Bosley, whose son Terrell was shot to death in 2006. He’s one of a raging epidemic of young people murdered in Chicago. So far this year, 36 students have died from gun violence in Chicago. I can’t shake the image of Bosley standing at her son’s grave. Even three years later, her grief and anger spilled out onto the flip-cam that CNN provided to her so she could record her feelings unfiltered. On this night, rocking my little son, Bosley’s pain is still haunting me, hours after I’ve left the office.
"The bullet destroyed a lot of things," Pam Bosley sobs as she recalls the shooting death of her son, Terrell. "It destroyed a lot of things in his body. My baby was suffering, he could not breathe. He did not deserve this. It was horrible. I thought I was going to lose my mind when I heard what happened to him."
In my office, which is really a cube, I read and view countless terrible stories. Lately, the daily affiliate rundown reads like a bloody horror movie. Most of the stories don’t make air. The Chicago student killings and the murder of Terrell Bosley will. On Saturday night, May 16, at 10 p.m. ET, we’re teaming up with our Special Investigations Unit to dig deeper into these shootings. We’ll hear from some of the victims now struggling to exist without their child. It’s a reality I don’t think I could handle.
As executive producer of CNN Newsroom with Don Lemon, I’m often the one saying "yea" or "nay" to a story. We can’t fit them all into the show, so I’m looking for that piece that will stay with you after the newscast is over. I know I’ve found it when hours later the story is still with me.
See for yourself, then join us Saturday night at 10. You won't forget it.
To learn more and find out how you can help stop the violence, contact Diane Latiker, founder and president of Kids Off the Block.
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